Tonight was thalia’s CDE Performance. It was really good. I was surprised because I was expecting something a lot different (read: worse) but I liked it a lot. I gave her some flowers (mini pink ones) and she seemed to like those. Then I walked her to her car, opened the door and gave her a peck on the cheek after we hugged goodbye (we haven’t kissed yet). She was smiling, and i think it was sincere, but… she was doing homework tonight instead of going out or anything (on a friday night).

This reminds me of what happened with her and ‘the boring guy’ at the end of the summer. Which, that’s the thing that worries me the most… being that guy. She used the same excuse with him just because she didn’t want to hang out with him. I’m rereading a conversation i had with her about that guy… and SHIT I am that guy, or it seems like it… must correct this.

Alright, talked with Ford about this, he’s good at these type of pep talks. I’m not going to have the relationship conversation that I was going to have sometime this weekend. There are plenty of good reasons not to do this, Ford mentioned a few, but I think the best one is that it hasn’t worked in the past for me. This is called learning from experience. I was worreid about being boring. But as Ford said, boring is subjective. If she thinks I’m boring… then it wouldn’t work out anyways. As much as I’d like to think it, people (myself included) don’t change. I’m set in my ways, and there’s nothing wrong with that. I’ve got a lot more to offer her than any other guy and if she ends up not seeing that, that sucks. I shouldn’t try and predict the future, it just doesn’t work like that.

Mike Ford is the man.

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